All gone by so soon ...

It was like really late in the night.. wonder why I was sitting there.. I was sleepy but then I did not want to ... had loads of thoughts running in my mind.. like always .. my profession , my friends, my family .. the face of it all today, and what it will be tomorrow ! Right time for these thoughts... it was all quite outside.. everyone around was asleep .. no distraction around to break the chain of thought....some time to contemplate and chew on stuff thats just passed by in a jiff !

Its tough coming to terms with life these days.. not that its going overboard .. its quite manageable.... but things are moving just too fast.. you have the same 24 hrs.. but more chores to do, greater expectations to meet and higher mountains to climb !So it works out that u work smart, quick, intelligent, use all possible shortcuts.. but fit in just about everything !!!!
Its only when u get some time off and u comtemplate , that u realize what good/bad has gone by .. and how little did u actually live that moment.. and how you wished that you could have lived it longer..

The worst part is ... that now you can just think and maybe smile/shed a tear, but the actual moment has been left way behind !

Any answers?

Another beautiful ghazal from the ghazal maestro Jagjit Singh .... and isnt this ghazal very true.. any answers to the questions below?

Koi yeh kaise bataye ke woh tanha kyun hai?
Woh jo apna tha wohi aur kisi ka kyun hai?
Yehi duniya hai to phir aise yeh duniya kyun hai?
Yehi hota hai to akhir yehi hota kyun hai?

Ek zara haath badha de to pakad le daaman
Uske seene mein sama jaye hamare dhadkan
Itni kurbat hai to phir phasla itna kyun hai?

Dil-e-barbaad se nikla nahi ab tak koi
Ek lute ghar pe diya karta hai dastak koi
Aas jo toot gaye phir se bandhata kyun hai?

Tum musarrat ka kaho ya isse gham ka rishta
Kehte hai pyar ka rishta hai janam ka rishta
Hai janam ka jo yeh rishta to badalta kyun hai?

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Marriage ! Aah !!

This 8-letter word surely gets lots of thoughts rolling in ur head immediately.. thoughts of happiness, excitement, fear, commitment, compromise.. and the list goes on...
But this 'thought chaos' is justified.. afterall its once a liftime thing.. and who wouldnt want the best !
I was reading up some success mantras of life... and came across this..
"When choosing your life partner, remember that this is the most important decision of your lifetime. The marriage relationship offers 90% of all your support, happiness and fulfillment so choose it wisely. Consider qualities such as affection, sense of humor, intelligence, integrity, maturity, temperament, compatibility and that indescribable characteristic of chemistry. If these are present, your relationship stands an excellent chance of great success"
90% of ur rest of ur life.. and its just that one person who can make all the difference !! (I almost gulped down four times with the thought!!)
well the above excerpt does list out the right qualities...seems like u cannot compromise on any of them.. or maybe u can.. So whats that which will work success..???
To keep it simple and short... marry a person who you enjoy talking with.. with old age that is all that will matter .. everything else is a pass by.. !
What do ya say ?

To chicken or not ?

Ha ! back after another era.. wasnt really busy but dunno why i did not come back here.. guess i was in more of chattering than thinking (quite unusual of me though !! am more of a listenerz!)
Guess maybe I came across better listeners ;-)

Got quite a few surprises off late.. ppl likin my blog.. huh !? i mean whats here is just me thinkin aloud.. most of it affected by the way how my days hav been going .. neways.. those ppl are my friends.. so i guess i know the answer ;-) Thnx buddies.. kinda need that appreciation at times to move ahead ! :-)

What was i talking about all this while when i was away .. mmmm....... almost everything under the sun... ppl, rains, delhi, office and LIFE (ah ! there s always a lot to talk abt this one !!)...

Ok.. One of the numerous converstaions that I had .. .. a long interesting discussion with a friend on "why ppl eat chicken" (background info : am a veg and my friend an all-meal chicken lover... guess u know how it must have all started !) Well... lot of things came up... y kill a life just for eating smth tasty .. to .. the employemnt it provides to ppl.. with breeding business nd all.. to health rasons, and the food chain.. blah blah !! The outcome was a deuce .. it went over a series of Adv me , Adv him... and ended as a draw when he got off the bus ! (thankfully ! ;-) )

So what do you think .. chicken or no chicken ? forget the taste.. and justify.. whats good !? i know what i am gonna get from chicken lovers .. but be rational and kind(esp to animals ! ) and humane before u say anything ;-)

Entry for May 30, 2006

I am in a 'kach kach' mood today ! kach kach as in .. like the sick kinda feeling u get when u land in a puddle, well dressed !

No complaints from life.. it couldnt have been smoother.. but somehow I feel a big hollow inside..
The days have been going very uneventful.. I rarely notice how each day begins and ends ... puts a question on my very existence sometimes !!

I am into a deep analysis mode right now ! thinking of all my dreams, aspirations, about people I love and care about , their expectations from me, and how I am faring at them ! So many uncertainities abt future.. and so much yet to happen in life.. and somehow I dont wanna wait any longer ... phew !

Guess I am just of patience right now !

Entry for April 26, 2006

One of the best penned songs I have ever heard... !

But you can definitely not appreciate it in all moods ..
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Kabhi kisi ko Mukammal jahan nahi milta
Kahin zameen toh kahin aasmaan nahi milta

Jisay bhi dekhiye wo apne aap mein gumm hai
Zubaan mili hai magar hum-zubaan nahi milta

Bhuja saka hai bhala kaun, waqt ke sholay
Ye aisi aag hai jismay, dhuaan nahi milta

Tere jahaan mein aisa nahi ke pyar na ho
Jahan umeed ho iski, wahan nahi milta

Kabhi kisi ko Mukammal jahan nahi milta
Kahin zameen toh kahin aasmaan nahi milta
Kabhi kisi ko Mukammal jahan nahi milta
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Entry for April 24, 2006

I can really cry out loud right now ...
why do things like this happen at all..
Do u meet new ppl.. only to part with them later??

This is just not fair !!

Entry for March 18, 2006 - My ideal Saturday ! :-)

Ha ! I am finally relieved ...... worked just too much last week .. and am glad it lasted just this long.... 16 hrs a day for office is just toooo much !!! All bad things come to end so did this :)

Started the saturday perfectly... got up a lil late.. then lazed around for a while.. read paper.. and then the nice holiday breakfast together ! it was simply blissful !! :-)

Later could not think of anything to do .. so browsed some net ... and then cooked express lunch after that.. was pretty pleased with myself for that .. 30 mins straight and "the lunch is ready".. one curry .. some rotis and rice ! not bad .. eh ! ;-) .. And for the first time made a pickle today.. luckily mom got busy so i got to put my hands into it.. though i got her to repeatedly tell stuff .. but i m sure she dint mind ;-) .. spent around an hr there leisurely.. hope she likes it ! :-)

Am back on the net again... i somehow seem to love it ..!

Wanna watch a great movie now.. no drama ...nothing serious .....just pure entertainment.. loads n loads of laughter ... mmm.. will have to think of one ! U guys got any suggestions meanwhile ??

Entry for March 11, 2006

I dont believe this.. its been so long that i penned smth here...
I hate to believ that i was so busy in work !
Was working on my comp at home today morning..and came across this.. i was quite surprised!! Its one of my own compositions ! first of its kind.. tried to write something close to poetry..hee hee! ;)wonder what went wrong when I wrote it...things seem pretty serious below!! ...
and guess what!? I wrote this during my s/w engg lecture in masters.. oh my my!! It was 7th Jan 2003, 12:30 pm , KVD(KV Dinesha) SE classDinesha sir’s class was a good source of inspiration….thanks to him!! ;)
Here it goes ..

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KYA KAHOON…

Aajkal mera man bahut dukhi hai…
Naa jaane kyoon sab mein itni berukhi hai!
Yeh dil hai ki phir bhi ummeed karta hai,
Duniya se lekin hamesha naummeed hota hai…

Suna tha achaiyi ko achaiyi milti hai…
Aur khushiyaan baantne se badh jaati hain…
Magar aisa maine hote hue dekha nahi…
Shayad logon ne mujhe dekha hi nahi.

Kahan hai who pyar jiski baatein hoti hai…?
Kahan hai who bandhan jiske kisse sunaiye jaate hain…?
Kya log apne aap se jhoot bol rahe hai…?
Kis bhram mein yeh log jee rahe hai…?

Is duniya ko agar thodi khushiyaan de saku…
Duniyawalon ke liye agar main kuch kar saku…
Bas yehi prarthna hai meri bhagwan…
Mera safar ab bhi jaari hai…!!!!

- MEENAKSHI
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Entry for December 08, 2005

Had a kindof peppy week... lotsa fun and not too much work !
Gosh!! Friends are really important.. wonder what life wud have been without them .. thnx to all of them for being there :)
Well .. the bad part.. feeling quite low today.. not an appropriate way at all to end a week like this, i know y i am feeling so... but i am surprised y its affecting me like this !:((

God pleeeaasssseee help !!

Entry for November 20, 2005

Its Monday again !! :)

Actually i dont mind the mondays, its nice being back in office after 2 days..
Had a nice busy weekend.. watched Garam-Masala!! not a gr8 movie, but nice if u have nothing else to do :P , did a lot of household chores.. its kinda fun...atleast one doesnt laze arnd and waste time on a weekend.. and when u know ur mom loves it.. u feel even better :)

I actually like the idea of being busy on weekends.. infact ur each day should be so.. just that the type of work differs on a weekend is quite relaxing , and an ideal 'break' . I have a met majority of ppl who love to laze arnd on weekends and do practically nothing... no issues with that.. just that one should not have regrets at the end of the day :)

I have started preaching a lot these days ! (i just did it right above tooo :P) I wonder y !! its almost like I have experienced everything in life ... and nobody could say anything more 'knowledgable' than Me on various life issues !! Its not that I talk shit, but i shouldnt be doing it at times when its not called 4 too.. i think ppl who know me will agree with me on this ;)

Entry for November 17, 2005

Phew ! just thought of the long day ahead ....

These days i am a lil short of work, which keeps me sighing all day ! I know there are loads of nice ways to utilize free time.. but then u gotta plan and execute accordingly! Then a day is still OK.. even a week is fine .. but a month.. !!!!!!!?? NO WAY !..so what i land up doing is NOTHING at all..

Well the good part is i can see loads n loads of work coming up.. so that kind of peps me up :)

so looong... another work-free day ahead ;)

Entry for November 15, 2005

Man !
u gotta be really really careful in this world !
There are ppl around u .. acting nice and taking really good advantage of u !!

Beware of this mean world !

Entry for November 13, 2005

Hi ..
I am back to blogging after almost an yr... i got lost somewhere on the way i guess ;)
Just had a wonderful weekend.. chatted with an old friend of mine who was home.. :)
Everyone seems to be caught up in the daily rut of office, and life seems to just fly by ! and its the weekend that u wonder that u just missed 5 beautiful days without even noticing the sunrise and the sunset !
got soooo much to do.. and so lil time.. !! HELPPPPPP !!!!!