Birthdays !! ?

How r u supposed to feel on ur "birthday" !!?

isnt it like any other day !!
i mean look at it , what s different ? u r the same, the day is the what is every day ...except for people wishing u "happy bday" , and u saying " "thanks".. some cake, ... ( ritualistic !!) add a few gifts ! ( anyone wud love birthdays for this part... ;) isnt it ??)

but birthdays are hyped !! and this is how u create it .. U embed a feeling that day ...that its ur BIRTHDAY , so u try to forcibly look at things differently !! and then when u see the difference, overjoyed, u say ... its my birthday !! :))
funny it sounds rite.. but isnt it so !! ?

The worst part ... u r expected to cherish another gone year of ur life, and when u look back at the year gone by.. u can only feel the loss !

The goodie side ... lots of people remembering u , u will be actually surprised by the people ...( the unexpected wishes ;) )... and the first thing u say to urself after the ritual has just ended, is " how did this guy/gal remember my bday" !! and u have that smile on ur face, anyone wud die for ... ;)

Questions with no answers.....

People have many faces, ever wondered y !? u r someone for ur parents, someone else for ur friends, someone else for ur BF/GF, and someone else when u r all by urself !!!

so who r u actually ? have u ever thought ?? when u describe urself, which facet of urs do u put in ? the nervous dude what u r all by urself, or the smart confident dude.. which u r in front of ur friends... or .. whatever u maybe !

u will be candy sweet to someone , and the next moment u r throwing all ills at him rite behind his back !! y ? any need for this make up ...

we r not like this when we r kids... have u noticed how simple their life is.. and how clear their head and hearts... and they r just them... the same 4 all :)

y the change then.... y the complications ... is it by choice ?

just question ur actions... can u justify them ?

on first thoughts...

My first attempt at writing Blogs !!! I do write a lot generally but thats when I have a low in life, thats the time u learn a lot. One thing i am always preoccupied with is ...THINKING ! .... good, bad, wat shud be, wat shudnt have been...blah bla blah....( more like how the cows chew the cud...on ... and on...and on....) there is just no stopping .. !! wish i cud put some brakes there... it gets destructive at times (@#$%) !!!