Ever wondered why things that we want the most, evade us, no matter how hard we try... and things that we never expect come by so so easily...

Is it God's will to make us want and love things that we can never have, and then teach us how to live without them ?

I guess this is life, this is all what life is !

Chand ke saath..

Chand ke saath kayi dard purane nikle
kitne gam the jo tere gam ke bahaane nikle
........
Dil ne ik int se taamir kiya tajamahal
tune ik baat kahi laakh fasaane nikle
(taamir = "plan")
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PS. The audio of this beautiful ghazal ia available at http://www.esnips.com/doc/3272048d-a973-4f88-930a-b7cb2aedf148/Ghazal%20-Jagjit%20Singh%20-%20Chand%20Ke%20Saath%20Kai%20Dard%20Purane%20Nikle

The Gift..

It was beautiful. Warm glazed paper, neatly packed box. She stared at it lying in front her. She had planned it almost months back, and now..she did not know what to do with it.. tear it or leave it. Ah.. jus a few hours! She cursed herself for taking so long to make it so special, hours so long.. that it was nothing now. 

She unpacked it slowly, and shoved it out of sight.

Out of sight - Out of mind, They say. 

She wished, it was.

If only wishes came true...

It was a normal day till she heard it. It was so unbelievable, she almost pinched herself. Her breath stopped, her gaze froze. A complete blackout. She quickly regained herself back to take control but what came was a complete inner turmoil, a reeling head, dry mouth, and wet eyes. She started walking as fast as she could - she did not know why- her mind was clouded and devoid of any thinking. She stopped suddenly, and cried out loud, as loud as she could - as if to let out something deep inside. She knew this will come someday, and she knew she had to be prepared, and she knew it so so strongly, but she still hoped for a miracle. She had always felt stupid when she did so, but she still did, she wanted to, coz she still wished.
It was all over. In a second, without a thought, without a question, without an answer - It was just a long deep silence inside, like it was never to be broken.

Kahani ek ladki ki...1

Was watching TV yesterday - and a 15 min episode touched me. Its a daily soap based on child marriage - I must say a very good attempt at creating awareness of what happens in so many villages in our country and whats so wrong with it. It revolves around a young girl aged 10-11, married, her inhibitions, her questions, her challenges, her fight for survival in the new world.

Just a brief on what happened in the 15 mins yesterday -The girl had ran to her parents home without anyones knowledge in her in-laws, 2 days back, after having being punished severly for a wrong doing. The parents have brought her back to her in-laws, scared of what society may say if she stays over. The in-laws are angry with the immaturity the girl showed in running off, and are not ready to accept her. The girls parents literally on the feet of the inlaws are begging them to accept her, and forgive her, are thrown out of the house. The parents shocked and crying, leave the house. The girl is left crying at the door, unwanted, unacceptable. She runs back to her  mother who just turns her back, and walks away. Having no option left, she runs back to her in-laws on their feet begging for fogiveness, and promising to accept any hardships that come her way just asking a house to live in for return !

Well, you can easily pass the above as fiction for reasons - 

1) its something you will probably never come across in the city. 

2) its on TV in the form of a daily soap.

But its not - you can fit this in your own life - the only difference would be girls getting educated and getting married after 18. Rest of the story is almost similar - maybe milder, thats it. 

Do or Die for the girl after marriage.

Whats sad is its the society who has made it so - everyone has daughters , everyone despises it and everyone accepts it - this hurts!

P.S. - have loads to add here, but enough food for thought already for a post. More will follow soon.

Life is beyond my understanding......

1 simple question has always baffled me...... Do we steer our life through our actions or does life steer us...?

Half my life already gone.. I have now started to believe in the latter... I know what the wise men say... 'Take control of life and make it the way u want it', and truly i believed in it too may years of my life.. probably because what I did and thought actually reflected in the way my life moved.But then there have been so many times, we all have not got what we wanted/wished for, even though we have worked really really hard towards it, and there have been times too when we got more than we expected too.. and exclaimed 'Gosh am I lucky!', and then I felt that my former belief was more of a coincidence..

Only makes me believe very certainly that a Superpower is controlling everything, and then I wonder how my actions are justified..
I can act any which way.. what is bound to happen will anyways !